Is it impossible?!

Trying to forget someone you love, is like trying to remember someone you’ve never met.

It´s impossible. 

You asking yourself, if there is still a little spark of hope. Is it really over? Have you lost? You still have these feelings for that person. Maybe that person does not has the same feelings for you anymore. I´m sure, that´s it. But why? Everytime I´m asking why? Why did it come to this? Was it my fault? I think there are always to persons to blame. Cause love needs always two persons. Love can not grow, if it only comes from one side. Falling in love means, two persons look at each other for the first time, and really know  that this person will never get out of one´s head. But in the end most of the persons who fell in love get hurt. They get disappointed. You thought you find the person you were searching for for such a long time. And then that person stands in front of you. Kisses you. Embraces you. You are happy. You are the happiest person in the whole world. But then, you see, that it was just a little stupid lie. It´s never been real. But for so many times you asking yourself what had happened if you did everything differently? What if? Would that love still exists? Would it? I do not know. But I think so. I´m so sorry for vereything I did wrong. I know, there are many things I did wrong. But man, you know, who is already perfect? We all do some smal or big mistakes. I think one mistake of mine was to get involved with you. But on the other hand, if i didn´t meet you, I had missed a lot. Cause I think I had a great time with you. And I hope you think the same. I really hope it. But I think my hope is pointless. I think you had already forgot me. Cause the way you act and behave, the way you smile and laugh, the way everything is alright with you. It makes me a little bit sad. But I do not want to admit that. I don´t know why but it is this way. I hate myself for thinking so. But it´s hard for me to accept this state of affairs. It still be hard the next time. I hope that some time we will stand next to each other, take a look, just smile, and be really good friends. That´s my wish for the future, I think. But secretly, my wish is something else.